Mar 23, 2008

It's now midnight and I'm doing my overtime work for my new project to be submitted tomorrow morning. As I said I always do this stuff... you know writing during the deadline.
LAVETT.
Kaya lang ang bad thing naman doon ay 'yung di ako pwedeng kausapin.... geeezzzz.... that set-up won't work to Bien so ako na lang din ang mag-aadjust. I work when he is already sleeping. Katulad ngayon.
Yesterday I've written bad things addressed to
one of my finest friend kaya lang I decided not to published it kasi nga baka maka-hurt pa ako ng feelings. Lalo pang lumala kaya huwag na lang. Hayun, nasa draft na lang sya. SPEAKKK WORDS OF KINDNESSS.... washaaa washaaaaa~~~ I will truly tryyy~~~
but... but...
I feel better na rin because I already ou
t-poured it.

My happy moment today was when my father bought me a DVD entitled "Across the Universe" na napag-alaman kong new favorite movie ni Bianca Gonzales.
We just talked about it the other day kasi. I told him that I was curious to see that movie kaya lang when I tried looking for it as in almost the whole day ay wala talaga akong nakita. I love GenSan haa pero materially may mga kulang talaga dito sa market. But as in but there will be no place like GenSan~~~ kahit pa yata nasa New Zealand na kami I will never trade this place eVer!
~Back to Papa~

I don't know how and where did he get it but I really appreciate his effort. Once again despite of my kababawan na struggle with this friend, I feel loved. It matters.
Yeppeee PaPa you always save my day!!!

Transparent akong tao, once I'm hurting you will see it right away. At ang alam ko rin sweet ako kahit pa sa friend lang. I always make her feel special kasi ganun naman talaga sila sa heart ko. Kaya yang mga excuses na distance, busy at kung ano ano pa will really not work for me. I gave effort to reach out but I was taken for granted. As in I traveled for almost 4 hours para lang makarating sa usapan pero biglang naging invinsible lahat. Kaya masama ang loob ko. Kasi feeling ko lang naman haa... I don't deserved it. Anyways me mga reasons naman talaga lahat ng bagay. I am sure valid yun. Perooo JUDY ANN SANTOS I was really taken for granted.
~~whipping~~~
hehehehe I am honestly fine now.
Di man nila alam how I truly feel the other dayss, binabawi ko na... friends na tayo uli....
Syensya na... baliw yata ako ngayun, huh!?

By the way I'm not yet finished reading the Kite runner book~~~ pero I'm reallyy reallyyy inlove, ang lalim, ang ganda at nakaka-mature. Yun bang tipong you will try to think if one time in your life you have betrayed a friend para lang mahalin at tanggapin ka ng ama mo. Tapos after the betrayal you will realized na mahal ka pala ng ama mo kahit sino at ano ka pa kaya lang hindi mo nakita noon kasi bulag ka sa paniniwala na ang dream son ng papa mo ay yung kaibigan mo na di na niya itinuring na iba sa kanya. Sa kagustuhan mong angkinin lahat ng pagmamahal ng iyung ama ay isinakripisyo mo ang pagiging loyal na friend nya at ang tunay na pagmamahal nya sa iyo bilang tao. Na meron pa syang isinakripisyong dangal para lang mapatunayan na mahaL ka nga nya bilang kaibigan o yung love na mas higit pa sa pagmamahal nya sa kanyang sarili. And the worse thing there was you are aware of that big love offered for you. You never appreciate that love.
Nasa turning point na ako ngayun. Andito na sa chapter na hindi na SILA bata. Me sariling buhay na sya malayo dun sa taong sinaktan nya. But the guilt feelings was always there. He is still trying to have courage to face his past. To be good again. Will he do that? My god I dont know.... I'm excited. Ilang beses kaya ako napaiyak dito. Kainis... ~~huhuhu~~




5 comments:

Salve said...

Ganda ng songs dun Across the Universe. But the whole movie, medyo boring sya at some points.

wITChy Boop said...

ms salve~~~ di ko actually napanood. But coning from you naku siguradong tama ka... baka bukas papanoorin ko na. I-kokonfirm ko sau agad...
~~excited~~~

Lerlyn said...

oi Loves, punta ka ng new zealand?kelan? loves, the way u write in this topic parang pocket book,gawa ka pocket bookd then pasa mo..i like ur thoughts.. =)good morning!!

joan said...

hi, loves! i'm also curious about 'across d universe'. can i have a copy? joke! hehehe. by d way, touched ko sa comment nimo sa ako 'finding..' and yes, i will watch 'stardust'.

wITChy Boop said...

i hope to send you....
when can you go home ba?
i will send you a copy. pramis