Fuck oi

Sometimes life is nothing but a fuck!

I really hate my day today.

It’s just so hard sometimes living in an environment full of personalities.

Shiit….

I can not wait to go out and have our life back the way it was.

The three of us lang.

Our rule

Our mandate

Our principle

I wake up so happy today only to ruin by a circumstances.

I really hate your mouth you know.

Sometimes you really are so unfair.

Compare to others, I work hard and yet

Kung makasalita

I feel so idiot.

I hate you

My heart is so angry for you.

I could still remember the fear in his eyes when I resigned in my job that day when I decided to go home early. I just texted him na hindi ko na kaya dito kaya aalis na ako. He stayed in his office. I could imagine how blanky his face was. Who would not? Bien was still so sickly at that time. Financially lubog kami sa utang. Left and right. Naisip kong everything happens for a reason naman, me darating~ me darating din.
And so at that day, I was waiting for him at home na lang during dinner time. When he knocked the door, he hugged me kaagad. He showed me the enrollment form for a nursing course. Di ako nakaimik. Alam kong last resort na nya ito para sa future namin. So kahit we didn't know where to get some finances to support his study pinatuloy pa rin namin. Until I have found a new job that is more satisfying for Bien and for him kaya lang physically magkalayo kami. Naiisip namin na siguro kung di ako nag resign, kuntnto na kaming maging epleyado na lang ng gobyerno all our life. Aasa na lang din sa kung anu mang mamanahin from our parents. We will not dream for more. Yung hirap ng buhay na naranasan namin dati became our inspiration to dream for more and to not stop studying and developing your life and believeing that God works in mysterious ways.

After three years, natapos na po si Dadi Erv.
I am crying right now kasi nga ang saya saya ko.
Gladys told me na he saw ervien's name sa net na pumasa daw sa nursing.
My goddd!!!!
I just can't believed how I feel. I am so happy na kulang na lang magtatatalon ako sa tuwa!
He did it! I am reading today the result. huhuhuhuhuhuhu~~~ang saya ko poooo.
Congrats Daddyyy!!!!
More life ahead~
We aret here for you.

Roll of Successful Examinees in the
NURSE LICENSURE EXAMINATION
Held on JUNE 1 & 2, 2008 Page:348 of 557Released on JULY 23, 2008

17321 MENDOZA, ERVIEN ARANA

Maraming pong tao dito, merun pa sa labas ng building. They attended the session to asked questions about the proposed Small-scale mining in their area. Ahh, this meeting was very healthy. I can say that people here are intelligent. They know exactly what to ask. I was even amazed. If I have not studied well~ mapapahiya talaga ang bruha. I was not aware that they even have invited a mining engineer. He made me nervous! I just thank God that I've done my presentation very well.

All the educators were also in the session. Prepared and confident in their clarifications. Sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, buti na lang nakikinig ako sa mga teachers nung nag-aaral pa ako ng Environmental Planning sa UM. My answers for most of their question were really taken from my stored knowledge during my masteral studies.

I love the way I talked. Nasaniban yata ako ng espirito ni Rizal. But I'm so uglyy here~ yun lang ang hate ko... huhuhuhuh~~~

Taken during the Joint session of Barangay officials and Sanguniang Bayan of Barangay Bao, Municipality of Alamada in North Cotabato.
The locality were apprehensive on the proposed Small scale mining project in their area. Who wouldn't? With the flaws done by the other laws and the effects of irresponsible mining 10 years ago?
Together with other national agency I was with them explaining the mitigations I have prepared. As part of the proponent's requirement, things like Initial Environmental Examination report is needed. This is an assurance that before the DENR would issue an Environmental permits, public scooping has been done and other required documents were gathered.
The new law for mining is perfect, that I might say. Ang hawak ng mga tao dito is anytime kapag di sinunod ng proponent ang conditionalities stipulated in the permit, it can be revoke. And the best partt pa talaga dito ay yung monitoring team composed of NGOs, LGUs, and the DENR. Ity's a multi-tripart tasking. They will be working together to protect our environment and at the same time, uplifting the economic condition of the community.

Purchasing tagalog pocketbooks is one thing that makes me smiling all day! After a haRd work last month, I'm now giving my self anything that makes me happy. I'm reading now as in walang tigil lalo pa't sabado ngayun at sunday bukas! Mind you, I bought almost all the tagalog books authored by Martha Cecilia but not all her books are available today. Yung story nya? Hayyy...kinilig ako. Pasensya na sa kabaduyan but it thrilled all my senses!



And you know what made my day super complete today? I just have my copy of Paulo Coelho's Brida and The Witch of Portobello. Though, there are still books that I have not read and still displayed on my table but as book-addict as I am, I can not resist Paulo. I just need to sleep well and knowing that his books are just there in NBS and yet I still don't have its copy~ It will only stress my night. Di yata yan babagay sa motto kong maging happy lang muna talaga at mag-isip bata pang lalo~ hahahahaa.. basta masaya akooo at busy sa pag-babasa!

Posting some of our pictures from Midsayap during the first visit

It breaks my heart but I know like me she is also busy doing something worthwhile.
No matter what, I will always be proud of her. I will miss the way she hits me with her wits. I so lavvvv it!
I will miss everything in her...
and naku ha.. bes..goodluckkk
at kayang-kaya mo yan!
She just freeze the blog.

My workmates and friends in DENR- SMICZMP.

Just looking back at that time when I was still single and wandering.

I was searching for PEACE but I found hatred
In all the days I've lived on with them
I've seen sorrows that blanketed my naturally joyful eyes
Ive felt tears running down in my innocent cheeks
Emptiness amid the crowded world

Now as I'm watching the memories
I'm cured
I was blinded by my wounded pride
All these time
I've been among with people who warmed my heart
People and friends whom at the same time were growing with me.
Its not them who had caused me pain.
It was me all along.

This picture gave back my glowing eyes
Cleansed my cheek from lonesome tears
They've tucked into my life and leave a colorful mark like a rainbow
With them I become who I am today
More loving
More patience
and most of all
More childlike than ever (Happy Grin!)

I felt the excitement I had during my first day of working with them.
I've no longer have to wish for a rainbow
It is here from a place inside me

Sayang, daug na unta ang team nila jei during the DENR sportsfest kun di lang sana inatake ng hika ang star player nilang si Joel (yung poging nakashades sa picture). Walanghiya~ sa pogi nya, eh naubusan pa ng hangin!
Flashback
Crush pa naman naming mga single and hottie SMICZMP girls ang mokong na yan 8 years ago. Kaya lang biglang nawala ang dating ni gwapito joel kasi naman kung gaano kasarap titigan ang mukha nya ganun naman kasagwang sumayaw! Talagang mapapangiwi ka while watching him dancing. Peace man!
Pero in fairness, until now, sya pa rin ang may hawak ng tronong "The most papabol material in the region". heheheee

Just today I finished my documentation.
Yahoooo-yahoooooo~~~~~~I can now watch Anabelle Rama's Movie with her daughter Ruffaya. I've been aching to watch that movie in its first hour of showing but I just can't sacrifice my commitment for next week's defense.

Also, I just teared the packaging of the book entitled The Prisoner Of Tehran today. Back to my reading again! Excited!!!! 'Been planning to bring it with me this day. Today and tomorrow will be my no-more-study-moment. I will feed my soul and my heart with books and DVDs. Hayy... I just can't wait for my copy of Azumi 1 and 2 from Jei. I also wish to reconnect with my busy bestfriend Eves. I wonder how's she been doin!
I'd like to say sorry for not hopping in with my blogger friends. I will be back visiting them probably next month. Nakaka miss na ring makipagblogtsismisan.

General Santos City

Simpleng buhay
Murang pagkain
Preskong isda at gulay
Walang traffic
Ambabait pa ng mga tao
Hindi parating nagmamadali
Higit sa lahat
You will have time
to be with the persons you love
Me sobrang oras para makipagtsikahan ke mommy at papa
Makipag harutan sa mga bata
Makipaglaro sa mga kaibigan na hanggang ngayon ay ginagawa pa rin namin
Ang sarap naman ng buhay na walang pressure
Simple lang pero masaya
Dito ko natagpuan sa GenSan
Sa halagang 20 pesos
Nakakapasyal na ako sa KCC at Gaisano Mall
tapos me subra pang 6 pesos pambili ng icecream.
Di ko yata pwedeng gawin sa Davao yun.
Ang layo naman kasi ng Toril sa city proper kaya sa
pamasahe pa lang kelangan na ng 100 pesos
Me bunos pang traffic na nakakahilo!
Pero syempre, nami-miss ko yung mga kaibigan kong taga-Davao.
Like now, I'm thinking of them kasali na yung piangbigyan ko ng puso.
Syempre si Bes at Jayvee, natutulog pa yun ngayun dun.
Si Joan naman kahit tag-Davao nasa Thailand naman nag wowork.
Si Joel? Wala na akong balita
Pati na rin kina Pia at iba pa.
Si Nancy syempre na Cebu
Si Ate Judith naman pauwi na raw here from Thailand.
Nyakksss... musta na kaya sila?
I just hope I can bring them here...
maglalaro ulit kami!

Communicating with people

In the North, theres a certain series of community reach -out I did as part of the project's social acceptability. What I do in my research here is to ensure the health and safety of the concerned stakeholders while promoting economic activities with equal considerations in the environment. Anticipating and responding to community concerns, aspirations, and values regarding our activities is kinda hard. We already have a preconceived notion against mining be it a medium scale or a small scale. I also have my apprehensions before accepting the project. But you see, that's were responsible mining go. Our country's main resource base is its natural resources. The utilization of these resources carries a great potential in the country's economic growth. There is always a choice of producing or importing the minerals, depending on the evolving comparative advantage among economies. This option, however, requires a certain degree of economic maturity that most developing country has yet to achieve. Thus, mining remains as one of the country’s major development option to free itself from the economic deprivation and attain a better quality of life for its people.Given this situation, the country as part of the global economy, must compete for investment capital in order to sustain many of our industries including mining. Geological prospectivity, stable economic and political conditions are some of the major considerations. However, in order to attract investors into the mining sector, a country must create the enabling environment that will allow it to compete with other countries. This is the very essence why the Philippine Mining Act was enacted by Congress - to provide the positive and competitive climate for mining investments with equal consideration for both social and environmental responsibilities.

What I can assure is when doing my report, I will be establishing an environmental management systems consistent with our current standard even if it's only a small scale artisanal mining where the operators will only be needing hammers and shovels to tilt the manganese ore.

Going North

I was doing some initial environmental assessment here to be used in my latest project. With a weird clothing and a witchy persona, my stay with them is a huge success.

It was a once in a lifetime project in a warzone place. I could not reject the offer but my boyfriend took a leave in his office to be with me. We stayed in comfortable hotel and truly enjoyed our stay even if I was busy working.

I keep on eating while working on my research. I was so tense in that picture kasi nga bukas na ang presentation ko with the stakeholders, Provincial Governor, Municipal Mayor and other councilors. I grew up in politics because my Mom is in to it but I just hate it when they started to asked questions not in my topic lalo na kapag nagpapasikatan at nagpapagalingan na sila.
I also hope to share with you some of my pictures during the presentation. Let me just think of it as of now.

After the first round, I took a rest and waTch Sharon's movie in Cotabato. Bahala nag magkabomba basta I have to watch her movie (joke...grabee sad..pero tinuod sad baya).

Jayvee's gift

My untouched books


I've been planning to have a copy of this book since college days but I don't know why I couldn't have the copy. Sa tuwing bibili ako, iba ang napupulot ko para bayaran. Jayvee surprised me ! Finally me kopya na ako! Salamat Gang. You are right nga akung gyud ning ampingan.


I've seen this book every time I visit NBS and I always feel the connection. Yun pala I'm gonna have its copy. See? I'm so lucky to have Jayvee! She is so simply the best! More books Gang... hehehe.



It was a OnEshOt present!
She actually had that gift last April for my 30th birthday. I've always been eager to have them but the situation would not permit it not until today. I was jumping with joy actually while opening the gift Jayvee had promised me. Though I must admit that these days I'm sooo busy and I could not even afford to lift a page from any books I just bought last week. Humm... okey, I bought books from National Bookstore General Santos City after I have done my community reach out in North Cotabato ( I've been absent in this blogging world because of that errr... job) but the books remained virgin. I will just wait until next month... hopefully.
...and before forgetting anything, from my heart Gang, salamat for always making me feel so important. Sa kayabangan kong ito, mahal mo pa rin ako. Subra nga akung pinagpala Jei. Mahal din kita masyado. Muwahhh!