Oct 18, 2007

Blinded

Reading my other blog, I realized how stupid I was for just thinking of leaving my family for the sake of one man that I dont even know. How can I be so inlove with him when we were only communicating through the internet.

Today, I am almost crying. Ang tindi ng tupak ko for the last 6 months...
Hello................ Loviellyyyyy!!!
I am glad your back to your normal self now.

When I told my husband about my feelings today. He hugged me and he even told me that he was praying for a second chance.
Halaka..... how can i ever leave him? He is enough gift God had showered me.

Ang nakita ko lang pala sa kanya ay yung kahinaan at kakulangan nya.
Now, nakikita kong mas madami pala syang good traits keas dun sa bad.

He love his family morethan anything else in this world. My God.... ngayon k lang po narealized. TYhank you Lord dahil you let me see the right path na hindi pa komplikado ang sitwasyon.

Nabaguk yata ang head ko tonight, Ni hindi ko pa natatapos i-review yung mga pinagdaanan ko for six months with the other man in cyberworld through my documented feelings ay nasasaktan na ako for my husband. Shiiittttttt!!!! Ang lupittt ko pala....

2 comments:

Gladys said...

m glad that ur back in the 'real' world now..m happy to hear this.

It's hard to gamble in the net especially if we have unfinished business sa atong real life. Kay magsaksak sinagol na man atong huna hunaon, ang gawas kay liborgz nga kinabuhi. Unya daghan mangangatik sa cyber world, dula dulaan lang nila imong feelings. Nothing is real..until you see them in person and you've interacted with them personally (more than friends ni nga level ha).

(Before)
Sa una kay mag-cge lang ko ka-inlove internet but it didn't do me good, kay ang ending..mag-cge lang ko og hilak. Until I get tired and I let go of everything. Nagdula dula na lang ko sa internet, mu-ingon lagi ko og 'i love you' pero sa tumoy ra sa akong ilong. I started behaving like a beast..like them..pero katong panahuna, wa man pud jud koy uyab nga klaro. Dula dula ra jud.

Unknowingly, naa na diay koy napasakitan (naa pud diay ning-seryoso nako)..pero manhid kaayo ko, cge gihapon biga biga sa net..kay malingaw man ko nga naa cge manawag nako, magpadala og bulak og mag-cge text, mag-cge og email. But mind you ( i hope dili nila ni mabasahan) ang ila email or text or unsa ba diha, ako ipabasa sa akong officemates. Usahay mangatawa mi..kanang dula lang jud akoa ba. Hangtod jud nga gikapoy ra ko and I decided to quit every kagagahan sa internet..

Then the biggest miracle happened into my life..ning-email ang akong bana (then admirer..asus hehehe)..1 day bago nako e-delete akong profile. Pastilan akoa na siyang gibinuangan ra og email sa una. Gipanghatag pa nako iyahang ID sa uban but maro maro pud siya kay ganahan man gyud daw siya nako. Di man gyud muhunong, sa kadugayang payts..Mrs Erhardt na ko :).

But I thank my hubby nga ningpursige siya kay happy kaayo ko karon. Under de saya este..bootan kaayo akong bana..hehe. Bitaw ay, walay libog akong bana, ako ray libog diri s among balay hehe.

Na taas na man ning akong nobela..pastilan..cge sa sunod na pud. Ayaw baya e-translate ha kay mabasahan nila..hahahahahaha. Thanks for sharing and I'm really happy nga ok na imong family.

wITChy Boop said...

wow glad.... nice story. pero alam ? SOMEHOW I KNOW YOUR LOVESTORY... ALAM KO KUNG PANO KA NILOKO AT NAGALIT. pero i admired youm kung pano mo nahandle lahat. I am glad... finally, your happy now!!