witchyboop

I have hurt my friend Nancy for posting here words that made her feel like she's the dirtiest woman on earth. I feel like a perfect snitch doing such when in fact I'm a great sinner too. Sometimes I can not control my emotions. I do speak words without even thinking of hurting someone. In Nancy's case, I do have intentions of hurting her. . .in which I did! I teared her and broke her heart. I was so angry that I did not cared of how she's feelin'. All I'm thinking was my self. I feel betrayed as well only realizing at the end that it was my fault. I could have reach out more and extend her my understanding especially in a moment when she needed it the most.
I never thought of having her back in my life but it caused me sleepless nights. I feel guilty having a grudge inside me. I reached out and after days of extending to her with the help of my Bestfren (our moderator), she opened her door once more.
My heart rate has gradually subsided but I have a throbbing headache realizing she was alone in Cebu.
After chatting to her just now, I tried opening my eyes and blink several times,wondering if I'm dreaming. It's true. I feel better now that Nancy had forgiven my bad words.
I was humbled by the situation we are in. It is hard pala to hurt someone and to live a life having a bad feelings lalo na if she's a friend or a family to you.
I am sorry Nance for making you miserable. And thank you for still treating me a bestfriend after all.