Feb 11, 2010

Gee.. what is diz?

Parang kagabi lang, punong-puno ng heartaches puso ko.
It's not because of Gladysclaire na ka-date ko kahapon but it's because of something happened when I get back home.
I cried again sa inis.
My son was with me trying to call his Dad.
Then I just found out na lang that we both talking to Daddy bear na.

I've never felt this sensitive all my life kaya nagulat ako how I felt kagabi. I can't even talk to daddy bear well enough kasi parang ayaw lumabas ng boses ko. Naka-stuck lang sa aking throat.
He was there sa phone comforting me. As I said in my past articles, I can't help being so sensitive now. Madali lang akong paiyakin. This is not so meee...

About the thing happened
I don't wanna felt na parang violated kahit hindi naman. Basta ayaw kong binubulyawan ako. I would react hard! Dati naman, madali lang i-ignore. Ako pah, masaktan na kayong lahat, nungka na masasaktan agad feelings ko. Sweet ako na medyo manhid. Pero ngayun overly sensitive.

Dati, if I want something, I can wait. I would kulit you to death but I can still wait.
Ngayon? Naku, kung ayaw mo, wag mo. Di kita pipilitin. Kaya kitang tikisin!

Buti na lang my mom came in my room this morning. Send me some fruit juice to drink and nicely she told me na pabayaan na lang what happened kagabi between me and my father. (YES! Papa ko kairingan ko)

I keep quite lang. Biglang iniba ni mommy usapan. Ang topic namin si Villar! Napangiti ako ng tuluyan. You know I can see how passionate she is sa politics here. She's been very busy lately with her public appearances sa community.

Before she go, she told me how passionate person I am. Lahar daw kami sa pamilya, pasyonista! That is why kapag me argument~ dibdiban. Mainit ang labanan. Matira ang matibay. Pero dapat daw, hwag kalimutan that at he end of the day, despite what happened, we should never forget how we love each other. I'm the only daughter kaya hindi pwedeng i-question how much I mean to them.

I tried soo hard not to cry. Pero unsa bang trying uy... it's difficult. so I just let my tears fall down. My mom left me. She smiled and told me na mlandi daw ako kasi me paiyak-iyak na akung drama ngayon.


2 comments:

havenlei said...

baka buntis ka?maarte ang buntis eh..paiyak-iyak.

wITChy Boop said...

naku... sana nga lae... sana nga...