May 24, 2010

My heart's a virgin!

All he do for us is much appreciated. Nakaka-high siyang mag-lOve!. When I get mad he makes sure to cool me down. Sasabihin nyang "Uyy... wag iyak langga-langa ko. Hays~ He is the only person who see who I am ~ yung pinaka-pangit kong ugali pero I would still feel his love. Our attitude may not match in some ways yet my respect for this person I married grows more everyday.

My job as a wife is to go and adjust with him kasabay ng mga pagbabagong nangyayari at mangyayari pa sa aming buhay. I don't know if I'm doing my best as his wife, friend and lifetime partner pero sigurado naman akong I make him happy. Kami ni Bien.

Kaninang umaga was his flight to Manila and soon next week his flight to Scotland. I was with him in the airport and so was Bien, my uncle who drove the car, my aunt and Lean. For the past days we've been spending our nights crying and hugging na para bang mauubusan kami ng bukas. I thought we'd shed enough tears pero hindi pala enough. Umaagas talaga ang mga nagababaga kong luha.

We hugged when it was already time to check inside. He kissed me and my son. Tapos ayun na, he was walking inside and while doing it palingun-lingon sa amin si Dad. I wanna cry again pero dapat ang asta ko ~my heart is a stone!~ and so I was smiling pa to him habang sumensenyas na "Okey, go na inside Daddy." He smiled back at sinabing ~ "six months Mommy, Six months, susunod kayo~ Tapos I saw him na pinupunasan ng panyo ang mga mata. Di ko na kinaya, tumalikod na ako at umiyak. Pati yata lalamunan ko merong nakabara. Na-mi-miss ko na kaagad si Dad. When the plane departed I felt my heart is tearing literally. I just can't described the pain. No adjectives would fit. Para bang my heart's a virgin. Iyong parang ngayon lang nasaktan.

3 comments:

lae said...

mine's a virgin too :(

Crys said...

I know exactly how you feel, because I felt exactly the same way few years ago... it feels like dying... literally.

Parang namatay ka tapos noong nabuhay ka ulit, ibang tao ka na pagkatapos...

G said...

tao po..napadaan ulit. wala ng work kaya balik na naman sa blogosphere.

BTW, alam mo, pareho lang kayo ng nararamdaman ng hubby mo during that day kasi ako din nung umalis ako at nakita ko yung mga kaway ng family ko parang ayoko ng tumuloy sa eroplano.

Iyak ako ng iyak the whole flight..ang hirap umalis. It took me awhile to get over it..cguro palakasan na lang ng loob kaya nakayanan.

I hope you feel better now..pero alam ko wla namang hardships na di mo kinaya..lol. C lovely pa!! hehe.

Perte ka fighter uy as in..lol.