Things that will rule my life

I will not stop improving my life, my self and my character.
In as much as I can, I will develop a strong foundation so that I can easily reach out to others.
Sometimes it's really hard to do specially if I'm not in my "nicey-witchy-girlie mood" but I will give my genuine services to those who needs me and lastly I will not forget God above all these.

My 2007 ends well. I was blessed with so many things. This 2008 also started very well. Got my new client, my husband is doing good in his work and studies and my son is also having a great time. I also have bunch of humble and talented bloggerfriends, supportive parents and a mother in-law, loyal friends and honest relatives.

I am reliving my passion sa pagka-sweyt...
"i love you all!!!"

Witchy puppet

I considered this one as the greatest material gift Dad gave me.
Not the make-up kit last year;
Not the Juday's like outfit last month;
Not the jewelries and bags years ago
but this one really made my knees bended on the floor.
My WITCHY PUPPET!!! hihihihi

I must admit that this year is our second try-out hubby and wifey relationship as we are trying to keep the marriage strong but I think we will make it ( God's will.... God's will). He understands me more now and I am also discovering new love-aBle attitudes from him.
Acceptance and willingness to be together is on the air!!! He is making me happy as a woman and as a person. And most of all he is bringing the best in me.
I pray that I'm giving him the same impact as he is to me.

When I opened the gift I was really surprised!!! (Grinning)
And more surprised I got when I read his message that goes like this:

To my Witchy wifey,
I love everything about you.
It is just that I do not know how to express it.
You are such a high-maintenance witch.
But I love you.... more than my life.
Suck my blood baby.
Eat my flesh.... merry xmas!!! hohoho
your vampire hubby
Ervs

He give effort to do this.
I thank him for making me feel secured now.
He also makes me feel sexy and beautiful. It's more than enough.... that is a bonus!!

Thank you dad!!

What is thy name

Twinkle reach out to be my friend. She's always humble and simple though she got everything a woman could ever asked for. It was at this moment that I realized how good she was to me.
While being so snub and insecure, she gave me friendship and attention.
Many many many years before, I have doubts on her kindness. I did not know who she really is. Just this night on her wake, I realized how good she is as a person and friend.

I am brave and stubborn.
Brave because I can always speak my mind.
Tell her things I truly feel even if it would hurt her.
Stubborn because I realized how selfish I was to her.
And yet after all, she freed me from every guilt feelings I could ever have from being so skeptical to her friendship.
Honestly, I pushed her away while she was trying to get close.
I am just lucky that like her name Twinkle, she truly gives light and shines for the people that matters to her.
Nasayang man ang mga sandaling sana ay nagkasama kami bilang tunay na kaibigan, nag-kausap naman kami at nagkapatawaran bago sya pumanaw.
She assured me not to worry.
She will be safe in heaven.
Rest in peace twinx.

Nurturing Pride

I almost want to quit about Shane’s attitudes towards socialization. She’s so near yet so far. A puppet-like in fact. As I don’t believed her stories in being abused and raped during her younger years, I had accepted it as a way to bring her close again to the family. Nap and I had the same belief on this though.

She had big changes in her studies. This way I really am so happy that she is taking her best step forward. I can see in her eyes her eagerness to impress herself and her family as well. It may be still long way to go but I know she can really make it.

She is allergic in my presence. I can see her being at ease with Gina while so affected in me. I just told my self that there is really something wrong in the way I conveyed my self to her. I examined my heart and indeed I really don’t know why despite of the effort I made and is still trying to make I can not find her inside my heart as a sister or as a person. Do I see her as one? Honestly until now I see her as a puppet. So hurt and so wild inside. Being away and lonesome is only her defense mechanism to nurture her pride. It was her pride that keeps her away and its her pride that keeps her sanity intact.

Believed me when I say that she is a different person inside. Look at her smiles and the way she emotes in her pictures taken by her alone. She was so free and so feral. If She is only in her natural habitat you will never believed the Shane you had been seeing right now. And that’s the real Shane…… where could she possibly acquired such behavior? I could say Genes. I wish to investigate more about her real roots. I had been asking Ervien about it and really what I am seeing in her attitudes has no difference from the stories laid by my husband.

She will be a threat if not taken care by the family. It is just so hard to enumerate the reasons here for I can not assure the privacy of my PC.

Is she still a pervert? I had a series of readings about her personality. On Paulo Coehlos Veronica Decides to die, I see her all through while reading it for about 3 times. It was also followed by a lot of books trying to understand what she had been through.

What I realized about her being so indifferent in me is the factor that I had been reading her too much. Digging more on her makes her sick. As I was trying to understand her, the more I think Im hurting her.

Well, she has been in to a lot of pain…. Enduring it all by herself. Thatיִs how strong she is. She might not yet discover her inner talents but as I consistently told her that she is really somebody. What a waste if she will not widen what God had given her.